Since our regularly scheduled programming for this week is an essay, and I didn’t really have anything planned (oops) I am going to just do a stream of consciousness writing. We’ll see what I have to say.
The Stream of Consciousness Perimeters
I don’t want to put too many restrictions on myself because I think the writing will be more fun to read with less restrictions. So I only have ONE restriction. Time. I will only give myself a timed 20 minutes to write.
The Results: Stream of Consciousness Writing (Timed)
Honestly, I’m at the point where I have so much to say that it is almost impossible to communicate. That must be the result of primarily only communicating with my parents. I love them dearly and feel very lucky to be with them right now, however, I AM 40 and lived by myself for 15 years before my Traumatic Brain Injury caused me to not be able to live independently. I think my parents and I are doing quite well during this pandemic. We’re all on the list of people vulnerable to COVID-19 so we are being extra careful. Or trying to be. I keep thinking of the global magnitude of this pandemic and if I still got panic attacks (thanks to what I call the resetting of the brain that was the TBI, I don’t get them anymore) I surely would get one frequently now.
Because we’re in the thick of this it’s hard to look forward and think about what life may be like in the future. I remember when I was feeling that way after my severe TBI and coma. I couldn’t imagine a way forward. And guess what? It’s been nearly 4 years since my accident and while life doesn’t look like how I used to imagine it, it still looks pretty good. Because at my core I realize a few things are important to me that I STILL have after everything:
- My family
- My ability to write creatively and just BE creative.
- Doggies!! 🐶🐶
If I’ve learned one thing in therapy (and I’ve learned MANY) it’s that you can’t be so hard on yourself. It makes every step forward far too challenging. So, with that thought, I think the world 🌎 needs to give itself a break and ease into life. We still don’t have a reliable treatment or vaccine for COVID-19 and until that happens we have to be ready for anything.
I definitely don’t write as quickly as I used to. Before my TBI if I had given myself 20 minutes to write I would have a 20-page paper. Sadly that’s certainly not the case now (or maybe NOT sadly because no one wants to read 20 pages of my stream of consciousness).😮
#CreativityForDays Weekly Project
I’m not going to share a picture, but please know I was creating A TON of stuff for my niece’s birthday. We had a drive-by parade and so I made posters, a banner, etc. I was creating so much and loving every minute!
It’s Selby’s third birthday next week. And she is scheduled to get a haircut the day AFTER her birthday. And the poor pup is SO FURRY! She’s a lot of fun to cuddle though even if she is getting too warm!